Rob Donnelly entered a catholic contemplative monastery in 1990. His search for truth spanned a decade when the darker realities of the institutional church were beginning to come to light. This memoir is a coming of age story set in extraordinary circumstances. It's a personal account of the journey into the catholic priesthood and the hard reality of leaving it. It's a story of whales and mystics, saints and sinners, spiritual traditions and masculine cultures. It's the story of gravity and enduring love.